After months of pain on my right side and several doctor appointments, I went back to the doctor to tell him something was very wrong, I hurt and we had to find out what was it was, no more guessing. My official diagnosis was pancreatic cancer, Adenocarcinoma, Stage 2B. I was no longer fighting a tumor, but four. After a year of chemo I had stereotactic radiation, 5 intense days, every other day. I look at life so much differently. I used to let little things get to me, not saying I still don’t get aggravated, but I just realize a lot sooner to let things go. I honestly believe a positive attitude helps a great deal with a diagnosis like this. My decision was to fight along with my daughter and husband – not lay down and die, but fight! Thank you to the John Wayne Cancer Foundation for being there for those of us who need the help, inspiration and research to help us survive. When I was a kid, John Wayne came out publicly that he had cancer to help others fight the big “C”. I remember my dad saying the man had guts to openly admit it. He was my inspiration to not give up. My daughter gave me a cup with the saying, “Courage is being scared, but saddling up anyway”. I use that cup every day. I read those words when I felt like I wasn’t going to make it through another day. But here I am, stronger than ever.